Journal at Lawrence Berkeley Labs 7/15/18
I go and go and go and then suddenly look up. It's scary realizing how in the goo I've been, but the predominant feeling is relief at finding I am still here.
So much has happened but yet my innermost self is unchanged. I feel so tenderly toward it - my little flickering flame. I am learning to trust that it's stronger than I imagined. No matter what happens, it'll be there. I can feel stability in that. In myself. In the return to writing and perspective. In the awe I feel looking out at my city sheathed in fog, glowing at the end of this day that happened despite my near-complete disconnection.
Alone, ultimately. But in tandem. Somehow the chaos of our tangential consciousness coalesces into working order. We choose consensual reality as our functional truth.
Consensus - my favorite definition: group solidarity in sentiment and belief. Consensus is not synonymous with truth but rather describes its agreed upon, but dynamic, approximation. Agreed upon as sacrifice for the power of the collective.
As many of us sometimes feel but maybe cannot name, our shared reality is a little bit off. This reality is not my truth nor necessarily your truth or the Truth with a capital “T,” if there is one. It's a working truth, which is a blessing, because that means it is subject to change.
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Word: Querencia (noun - from Spanish) -- a place from which one’s strength is drawn, where one feels at home; the place where you are your most authentic self.
So much has happened but yet my innermost self is unchanged. I feel so tenderly toward it - my little flickering flame. I am learning to trust that it's stronger than I imagined. No matter what happens, it'll be there. I can feel stability in that. In myself. In the return to writing and perspective. In the awe I feel looking out at my city sheathed in fog, glowing at the end of this day that happened despite my near-complete disconnection.
Alone, ultimately. But in tandem. Somehow the chaos of our tangential consciousness coalesces into working order. We choose consensual reality as our functional truth.
Consensus - my favorite definition: group solidarity in sentiment and belief. Consensus is not synonymous with truth but rather describes its agreed upon, but dynamic, approximation. Agreed upon as sacrifice for the power of the collective.
As many of us sometimes feel but maybe cannot name, our shared reality is a little bit off. This reality is not my truth nor necessarily your truth or the Truth with a capital “T,” if there is one. It's a working truth, which is a blessing, because that means it is subject to change.
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Word: Querencia (noun - from Spanish) -- a place from which one’s strength is drawn, where one feels at home; the place where you are your most authentic self.
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